Which other way out remain but to persist in this madness? To search for any unnecessary aptitude, implement to establish other activity or social group only to mitigate the effects caused by the compulsive thoughts that take the mind while it's not busy with any kind of exercise? To develop irrelevant ambitions to supply the need of competition that after a determined step only generate vain interests, selfish.
But who isn't egoistic deep within? There's no will free of guilt. Although not every egoistic will must be individual only. And justly for the existance of a purpose that isn't individual only, that there's the risk of losing the focus on reality, to stop wishing everything by concentrating all the energy in an only interest, anxiety, requirement.
Despite the redundance of habits and themes, sometimes, everything seems possible, so easy, accessible, and we want to believe that this reality is the same that circles us every day, and all that is necessary, is to be optimist, to have some kind of faith, or even superstition, hope from destiny, from a god, whatsoever that can provide the success of what is greedily desired. Nevertheless, a disillusion is sufficient to lose the trust in whatever and maybe also the self-reliance. Though we don't lose our notion of natural capacity, which limit us to our favorable possibilities.
So, what is already known, or may be compared in determined spheres of inference, becomes ordinary to our point of view, we start to lose gradatively the happiness, or satisfaction in submiting ourselves to an experience. We don't want to play anymore. We already learned the necessary lessons to reach an objective. Our interests are clear to us, or at least they should be. And then, when the difficulty interposes itself in our interests, threatening our will of life, making us to premeditate the failure followed of deception, we give up.
